Whelp, that didn't go quite as planned :) I started Enbrel today. I tried my best to avoid it: I have been following a gut healing program called the RepairVite Diet at a functional medicine clinic. No grains, seeds, legumes, dairy, sugars, eggs, nightshades for 6 weeks. Supposedly, by not eating any of these foods (and taking special supplements) it eliminates all inflammation in the body and allows for healing of your gut and increases immune function. It sounded great!!! The whole idea is very similar to the Whole30 program. On top of this I was getting Immune Boost IV's twice a week. How could this not work? However, I baffled my doctors and immediately started flaring up?!? I grew this nodule on my finger and started having shoulder, wrist and hand problems immediately. Thinking I was just detoxing I continued for the six weeks with no improvement. I had to discontinue all supplements due to diarrhea for a month..TMI. I'm still trying to understand what went wrong...too much meat? Too many new supplements? IV's? May was a stressful, busy month with school wrapping up, too stressful? Who knows? I am still sticking to this diet 75% of the time because I believe so much in the reasoning behind the food I eliminated and why. I am beginning to introduce foods slowly back in and believe I do have a problem with corn, dairy and obviously sugar. I'll keep experimenting with that. On a good note, I didn't get one zit for the whole 6 weeks and so I'll take that as my victory. I know I sound optimistic and ok now but this whole process devastated me. It's been weeks of tears and frustration. It is always hard to go at something 110% with a desired outcome waiting for you at the end which never comes and isn't meant to be. As I have been learning for the past 10 years, RA is a roller coaster of emotions. This was a hard dip though.
I've been bitter and sad the past few weeks and I don't like being bitter or sad. Nothing good comes from these emotions...ask my children or husband ;) I'm normally a pretty happy person and so it is frustrating when I get in a funk. RA has given me more funks than I would care to admit to. Most days I have to wonder what good, if any, is coming from this trial in my life? I still don't completely understand why I was given this disease to deal with at age 23. I can't dwell on this question for too long, it makes me crazy. However, I was at church Sunday and received a beautiful message in my Sacrament Meeting by a young girl who recently lost her younger brother (10 years old) this year. It is called the Currant Bush by Elder Hugh B. Brown: